Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Bread and Roses

BREAD

Day breaks the first thing I smell is my house, I've always woken up like this. I raise from bed and look at my wife at the end of the bed hangs a black cloth reminding me of why I have always woken up smelling my bed. Why I have always kissed my wife goodbye and hugged my children, I don't necessarily work in a dangerous place on the contrary it's is a quiet place, sad, treacherous place I decided to call the edge of the world. I walk, walk towards the white pillars of smoke slowly my mind goes blank, no longer does it think of the pain the hardships. As my body stepped in front of the factory I was in the state of no mind, my body moved, on its own walked towards the door and entered the dark abyss. As of now I paid no head to the brick walls the stillness of everything, all men where already at their stations. My mind wavered for a second I noticed everyone's eyes in the room, empty, lost, sad they were eyes that lost hope. Again I felt my mind fade back and I wondered for a split second before the whistle rang to signal work, I thought do I have the same eyes as them?
As the day went by everything in my mind was blank I only focused on what I needed to focus on, I only needed to focus on the object I needed to create, the only thing I've had to create for the past year. I thought nothing of it that is, until the lunch whistle at this point my body and mind have been set to the whistle it was a signal for me to work. As I silently ate my small piece of bread I thought back, back to the days where I hopped to become chief of this factory now that thought was the furthest thing from my mind. I only thought of how to survive and how to work myself like a slave to do just that, survive. At the end of the day I walk home as I reached the house the familiar scent of cabbage and water filled the air. My wife decided to make cabbage soup for the hundredth time, I really can't remember when was the last time I had meat. I looked across the table and noticed the sad faces then I remembered why I work, I work to make these children happy, and in these hard times I can be replaced at any moment. It is at these times that I remember I have to work to keep my family alive.

ROSES

What is it that I don't have? I am filthy rich there isn't anything I can't buy, heck I give my guest cigarettes wrapped in hundred dollar bills. I make $600 dollars an hour while my workers get tidally squat, am I evil? Isn't America the land of opportunity? because if I'm evil then maybe you aren't American. All I'm doing is creating "my" opportunity to create my empire and to have everything I desire. I have in now way done anything which would be considered unlawful in this land the strong survive while the weak perish that is how the world works, that is how I work. Right now as I am writing this, as I am writing my daily life which will soon one day become famous because I am an extravagant man I can not help but feel pity for the peasants that work for me but as I continue to write that pity quickly disappeared. Why should I care for the poor all they are to me is my money and that is all that matters in this world, MONEY! And truly that is all that matters now I will sigh off on this journal entry and go wreck some lives so I can make a few extra bucks.

Monday, October 19, 2009

PSAT/College day

There are a million things one can say about what one thinks, especially about a practice test that can prepares them for their futures. I can say that the PSAT was boring, I can say that but that wouldn't really be my honest opinion...well as me it wouldn't be, but my teenage side says otherwise. For me the test was slightly difficult when it came to the grammar and reading parts only for the reason because I fail when it comes to those types of things, and just straining my mind over those types of problems I kept running at of time which caused even more stress. Though still I felt that all of this was necessary, for what? Well for the future, because we are the future all of us are the future, no matter how much some adults deny it we are the future and at a certain point in an adults life they have to stop paving a road and have others due it. We are are a force to be reckoned with and to be honest I feel as if 2011 will be the beginning of a new era.

Though this is not the end of my talk of the future because I have yet to speak of the small glimpse of the future I saw. Now usually I would deny ever going to a college mostly because I really don't care which one takes me in as long as it's cheap and I get accepted. Of course the college I went to though made a small impact in my mind, I truly felt that maybe I wanted to go to this school. The name of the school was USD, at first I was skeptical because the school was a catholic school with a church and everything but as the tour went on I learned more and more about their programs, tech, majors, minors and a small thought crossed my mind "HECK YEAH!!!" So one could say that maybe USD might be my first choice in a long list soon to come.

Anyway I talked a lot already so Ciao!